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2011-04-15T03:23:00.004+04:30

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به امید وصال روی دنیایی تو

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با رقص باد در تاب صدایت

جام بی خط می ام کو
بی حفاظم از دو چشم او

دعا بود نور و آب و خاکش

کجا بود جای تمنا در قلب پاکش

رهایی از او ندارم

گناه است تنها خیالم

از بهشت توبه کردم
به جهنم روانه جستم

ازآتش جهنم ترسانند مرا
بر پای او صد سجده کردم

مگر دین من چیست
شب و صبح در نمازم

در خیال بی تو مستم
میرم و زنده شوم من

طاقتم کم شد از هر نصیحت
در آینه ی سرخی می

بی ثمر نشست غنچه ی سرخ امیدم

پس کجا بود رحم رحمان من

در آغوش غم خدایم انداخت

راه دگرم چیست

Dream A Day

2010-08-31T19:28:00.007+04:30

I long for a day
That I can be awakened
By the warmth
Of your precious lips
So I could awaken
To the most beautiful thing
That I will ever see

How I long for a day
To be able to hold you tight
And to go senseless by
The taste you have
The eyes you look
And the voice you speak

Oh how I long for a day
That my desire of soul
To rise by the thought
To stroke your hair
And keep you near
And give my all
To make you smile

To close my eyes
And know
That I have you
And the dream is finally true
So I can smile
And give my arms
For you to rule

And how I long for a day
To lie by you
And leave my flesh
That can't withstand your touch
And fly to heavens
Only to take you there
At the cost of my soul to flare

Oh how I long for a day
To know its here
The time I can
Give my lips to you
For you to kiss
To conceive my life
For you to live

Oh
How I long for a day
That I can finally let go of life
By the feel of your lustful skin
And let my tired eyes at ease
From the weight of the gorgeous goddess
That I forever dream

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i consider this the the best piece i have, and will ever write

Forgive Me

2010-08-31T19:26:00.000+04:30

Forgive me my love
Forgive me when I perish
Forgive me if I faint
When I'll kiss your lips
As I hold your face
And I stare at you

Because my heart rips itself apart
Just from the thought of you

Forgive me as my hands
Tremble from the dreams of you

I can't withstand your love
My eyes can't dream so much
Forgive me my all
I will die when I reach you
My soul will fly away
You will blow my mind away
By just being you
And me loving you

And I weaken
From wanting you
It makes me vulnerable
Just watching you

Which I never thought it would
As I never chose
And I never thought
You will be my all
As I always thought
That you will fade with time
That you will drift away

But I dream again
And want you again
And love you beyond my own belief

I only live to reach one goal
To touch your face
And to hold your hand
And to maybe kiss your lips

So I will have no point
To keep on to my imprisoned soul
When I reach you
And when I hold you

Forgive me my all
If I die from the love I have for you

Sometimes

2010-07-26T17:54:00.000+04:30

Sometimes
I don’t wish to live
Sometimes
Its just too hard to bear

Sometimes, I don’t want to love my all
I want to forget I lived
And put down my head
And forget I live

Sometimes, I just want to die
I look out of the plane
And all I want,
All I want is to fall

Sometimes, life seems so long
I want my hope to end
I want the pain to stay
I want my all
I want my love,
And I want my eyes to cry

Sometimes
I don’t want the joy I seek
I don’t want the dreams I have
I don’t care for life
I don’t care for love
I don’t care to feel

Sometimes
I don’t see the point
To hold on to my imprisoned soul
I don’t want to think a thing
So I wanna let go

Because sometimes
I feel the world's too cruel
To hold the love I endure
And to bear my tears
And to keep my love and soul

To keep my all

I never wished this life
I never had the chance to choose
I laugh to words that it's in our hands
So why do I hang on to my life
That I never dreamed…

Full Of Lies

2010-07-26T17:53:00.000+04:30

I'm so sorry
Was all she said
As she laid my broken heart
In my hands, and left me for dead

And I stood there
Hours in the rain
So I could hide my tears
And ease the pain

The night was cold
Freezing through my spine
The chill came from me
Left alone with the moon to shine

And I could smile
To how I screwed it up
why couldn’t I keep my cool
I had to burn but drink it up

The love I warmed
For so many years
The nights I stayed awake
Filling it up with tears

Because my pure white feelings
An idiot I was to show
To stay there watching
What a coward I was to go

Because Love, affection, a happy ending
It's full of lies
I should've stayed the same
This side of me, should never rise

What I Feel

2010-07-26T17:52:00.001+04:30

My love is hopeless
You say it's pretty obvious
Could you imagine the pain I feel

My dream has gone on for so many years
With sadness, misery, a little hope and tears

I will make myself believe
I'll deny my heart, will make my mind deceive

Cruel world washed away my smile
To put me away from her a million mile

I lie broken on my pathetic bed
My color of love is still red

If my love was about to die
I would give my life for her without a why
She doesn’t know me I can not lie
And you ask me to say goodbye

My life is nothing without her near
I don’t seek an aim without her here
Even when I watch her in the arms of her dear
could you imagine the pain I feel

I'll give my life not just for her
I'll die for the way, to get to her
For a life to stare at her
You could never imagine the way I feel

I'll never give my hope away
I'm crazy, yes, an idiot to even pray
But till I live then the hope will forever stay
Because I can't explain the way I feel
I met with love in an unbearing deal
So my wound will never heal
And I may even bleed to death
But I'll drop in, embrace my last breath
As it was given out for her, I won't regret it a peth
Could you imagine the joy I feel

Unreal Worlds

2010-07-26T17:47:00.000+04:30

Why am I on my own
now that I need her to hold me alone

Why do I wanna cry
While I haven't said no lie

Why am I this weak
Now that standing's what I seek

Why is the world so cruel
Why do I try to hope my duel

Why am I an idiot
To follow the same old goal and pity it

Why is hate so sad
When all I want is my rage to go this mad

Why do I love
When love adds my needs above

Why am I in need
When I dream to be freed

Why cant I close these eyes
And listen to my dreams of lies

Why should I hold the red light in
When the chances of success are this much thin

Why oh why oh why
Why does destiny always deny

Deny the hearts its fooled to fly
Fly to reach her, they'll all die

I hang my soul to unreal dreams
Because it's the unreal world who gleams

Blinded To Steer

2010-07-26T17:43:00.000+04:30

The moon shines so dear
The wind blows from its fear
Should I cry when sadness's here
Should I reply when the heart seeks tear

I'm bound to to chains of life
I cannot lead
As if I could only run
With no care to be freed

Isn’t this all so clear
Were played to be even here
When love is nothing but given
Aren’t we all just blinded to steer

Because in my hope
Am I able to not dream you
When under the sky
Am I held to weep in the thought of you

Satisfaction strives
To be able to watch you here
When my heart stops to rest by you
Can I keep my soul from its sheer

If only I could keep my soul from its sheer

My Heart

2009-12-24T19:06:00.001+03:30

My simple heart
You were deceived
My unending love
You weren’t looked for
Why were you received

I lie in the crying sky
The rain of my precious sky
A time, you were so steamed up
Why did you take this road with me
We were both a time so high

My simple heart
We were deceived

When we were a child
She passed our eyes
When lost in the gaze
High from the scent
While love flies

My troubled heart
We were deceived

My heart
Keep on breathing
I'll close your eyes
As she unlocks her's
To another mere being

My wounded heart
Keep on bleeding
I don’t wish to live no more
I'm tired from this pain
And the endless dreaming

My weak hands
Cover my naked eyes
My heart can't bear no more
The vein in my eye dries
As the love for her may rise

My staring eyes
I need the sleep
Break the gaze
A dream might appear
From of memories in deep

My pure love
I will hold on to you some more
While you burn my soul away
I'll perish to thin air
And die from the stare I wore

My simple most precious heart
I gave you away
I don’t need you no more
My soul is gone
There isn’t another day

But my simple heart
You died so many years ago
When we fell
My life went white
You of all should know

My deceived heart
Come to my arms
We may as well as dream

Love Is Not Enough

2009-12-24T19:05:00.000+03:30

My tear falls,
As I stare
At the years I spent
Running after you
After an illusion of air

You are a flower
The most pretty one I've seen
And you’ve hurt me more
Than a burning pain, ever been

You laugh so loud, so hard
While I'm in tears of wanting you
On my knees, on wet ground
From the years of loving you

You go on, you never see
You ignore, you're never hearing me;
As my hand trembles;
From the weight of an endless plea

If I had a choice
I will never in the sky love you
Go and have your fun
Turn your back on me
I'll be doing the same
On an unending degree

If I had a choice
My heart will never stop in front of you

If I had a choice
My eyes will never stare at you

If I had a choice
I will never stay awake a life for you

So why am I in love with you
Do you even know who I am
Could you imagine the life with me
Don’t think I'm less than you
You don’t know what I can be

The wind blows so cold
As I drown
In heartless sand
Thinking you
Of holding, not you, but your hand

I am alone
Because of my love for you
But I can break the ice
If would want a hand, even you

I do love and want and adore the sight of you
My Alice Jackson
If I may, I would even make believe your love in me
But love is not enough
My life, we cannot be

We will never be
Not because I don’t love you
Not because you don’t love me
Because love is not enough
For a life to be

Love is not enough
For a life to be

Trapped in deem

2009-12-24T19:04:00.000+03:30

My heart weeps
I can feel the tears
As I watch your face
The distance nears

The pressure grows
As problems line
The worry's there
Whenever hope dose shine

And I break some more
Behind this screen
My eyes will wore
From staring the scene

And I might cry
And inside I'll hurt
Not even you will see
I'll hide behind this shirt

The earth will die
From the weight of lies
As we tell ourselves
Caught inside her eyes

And love may smile
To the fools it sees
That'll sacrifice it all
When logic is knelt on knees

And life will pass
Time will go
New love will bore
And no one will know

Of the pain it brings
Of the disappointments it sings
And of the hearts that bleed
And of the kids it stings

Because we want to love
To fly when high
To depress and rot
To never know this why

And we will keep the tears
As memories we dream
Love is the best poison for us
To be trapped in deem

Where Am I ?

2009-10-07T00:04:00.000+03:30

Define me happiness
Define me…
Define me a dream
Define me the feeling
Of an illusion, as it may seem

Remind me of love
Is it a walk by her side?
Maybe touching her hand
The dream of the ocean
To reach the sand

Define me hope
Of endless nights
Of being high
To be drunk from the scent
Of the dream to watch her eye

Picture me a smile
Bring me a glass
Of fine red wine
Sing me of the winds
And dare me to cross the 7th line

Seduce me a tear
Another from my eye
It's been long since the rain of my Alice sky
The warmth has blinded me
I've grown careless why

Leave me
Leave me and go
Leave me and pursuit yourself a light
To follow, to dream, to feel, to live, to maybe… to maybe love
And forget of me, when you reach such joy and sight

My All

2009-10-07T00:03:00.001+03:30

Will I be punished if I kiss your skin
Will my soul be sacrificed
Will my youth
Will my hope
Well let it be
As if that is the last thing I do

If it’s the last thing I do
Well let it be

Take my hand
Take my arm
Take my legs
scatter my body if desired
But leave my eye
My staring eye
As I need to live
As my life is to watch her soul
The unbearing beauty that’s made me mad
From the scent of her hair I perish
From the memories I drown
From the look of her I die
From the sound of her gorgeous voice I scream
As I never got the chance
As it doesn’t work this way
I will give my all
If only to be with her
But she will not
She doesn’t care for dreams
And why ever should she
I'm just a pathetic guy
Dreaming for a forbidden soul
As we are not the same
We have not the same
We live not the same
We hope not the same

But I love you
Love you beyond my own belief

Will I be a fool
If I leave you so
And I will leave my life
My hope
My dream
My all

Will I be alive again
Will I smile again
Without your smile

Can I bear the thought
The thought of you a little sad
Your tears
I would rather burn
In the most burning hell
I would rather burn
But to see you cry

For all my life I will give to you
I will not watch you
If you desired to
And I might cry
So what if I might die
I might loose belief

But I will give my life
My all
My tired eyes
Even the love
That I dream upon
That I live upon

The life of watching you

I will
I will give my all

Even if you don’t remember me
I beg you so
Forget this man
He has lost everything for all
For you
His life
You know it's you

He might as well as break
From the weight of life
As its too damn beautiful
For him to live
For him to love

But his heart
It wont bleed again
As the blood has been drained
From his eyes
His staring eyes

I will forever love you my doll
My idol
Even if they leave no soul
Of nothing but the eco of my screams
The whispers I cried for you
I will forever love you
My all

My all
My all
My all

My love
And all

I Don’t Love You

2009-10-07T00:02:00.001+03:30

I cried
I cried so many times
You never heard

I cried
that I'll give my life for you
Go tell your boyfriend to do that
I'll see where he runs away to

I've watched you kiss him;
So many times
Could you imagine how I feel
Of the wounds inside these spines

You never cared
If you did, I never heard
Maybe I would have been the one
If only I wasn’t so obscured

You seem so happy
Do you feel in love?
How long will you two go
How long will I be a watching dove

How long should I have to dream
While he has his hands on you
But you're so far away
To hear my love for you

I can't go on
We can never be
So while I watch the waves
Of the broken sea

I will cry

I don’t love you
I don’t want to
I don’t need to
I can't seem to
I can't bear to

I'll look away
To let go of you
To try to
I will stop my stares
I'll lie to my broken heart
That you never did exist

And never will

Not even in dreams
I will let you go
Try to stop my love to flow
That I will deny my heart so much so
Cause I don’t,
I don’t,

I don’t love you

Dawn

2009-10-07T00:00:00.006+03:30

Dawn
What do you seek from my soul
Let me wonder in my dreams
Let me shatter behind my wall

I do not wish the light
I wish to only stare her eyes
As it’s the only sun I see
Her smile, which makes my sky

Dawn
You are the wake from my all
I do not live without my sky
I do not see without my fall

Dreams
The stupidity of my mind
The lurking beneath my skin
Waiting for real life to bind

Dawn
It’s the horizon I stare for her
As her beauty has filled me with stare
If only life was simple or fair

Dawn
To them, you're the hope they see
To me, you're the end to all I need
The hope will go, only misery will be

Dawn
I stare so much at you
Trying to find her smile in you
The obsession my life has drew

Dawn
I wanna sleep for all my time
Dreams are the only things I seek
I never wished for my world to rhyme

Oh dawn, oh dawn, oh dawn
Leave me and go
I don’t want the day to be
I want her dreams row to row

Every Little Thing

2009-07-10T11:20:00.001+04:30

I'll wipe away my tears
Ashamed to be seen
I wont show my love
I'll hurt as I've been

Crying I fall asleep
To ease the pain with deems
My mind might as well go high
But my heart will stay as screams

Broken I'll wake at night
To think of fears and tears and whys
I drop lying to watch the alarm
So I'll hit it lightly with tired eyes

I get up to stare at mirrors
I see her face behind the past
Her smile burns the mind
While the stare will never last

While I cant bear the time
The hope holds me to stand
While how I will get to her
That’s what hope will never understand

And then I pretend
Hide behind the usual I
As I laugh and joke to friends I see
I hurt and perish till the day will pass by

With the scent of her I reach my door
As I go inside I'm reminded of her some more
And I'll leave the usual smile I wore
And I drop depressed on some floor

And I lie there for some time
Until its midnight, I drag myself to the life I'm in
I don’t even desire to eat
I live on my thought of her as I've been

And the days go by
But her face never does
I see her in every little thing
and I fall in love more than I ever was

Cry

2009-07-10T11:19:00.001+04:30

Cry my eyes
Let the feelings go
Destiny, hope, her smile
Let my tears flow

Cry my eyes
It was what I didn’t do
The horizon, the sea, her eyes
If it was all I ever knew

Cry my eyes
Deny the hate my head can see
Give the reins to this broken heart
Turn from reason and try to be

Cry my eyes
It's what we can only do
A coward in the cruel world free
We'll see where hope takes you through

Cry my eyes
Don’t watch her face so long
She doesn’t care for dreams
Act as we don’t believe this wrong

Cry my eyes
These veins can take no more
Relieve the thoughts off my mind
It’s the only cover it has wore

Cry my eyes
Open to bare wind and die
This soul tires from the love inside
Open my chest, let it fly

Lie my heart
Tell me that I can live this long
My soul's now so so gone
Cover the truth from my song

Sleep my mind
As I lie here waiting to die
Turn from this world of lusts
Turn away and say goodbye

Believe These Words Of Me

2009-07-10T11:17:00.003+04:30

I'm serious;

Stare into my eyes
I'll hold your hands
I'll hold myself from going high
As I stare at you;

I will;

I will give this life for you
I will throw heaven away
Only for the chance to be with you
Nothing matters when I feel you
My heart shatters from the sense of you
My mind blinds from the scent of you
My hands tremble from the look of you
My eyes weep at the part of you
I only live to love you
and only you

I dream too much
Now my memories even feel like dreams
But you're no dream
Different from every other thing I seek
You could walk here any time and day
You could lie beside me every 9th of may
I could touch your lips in every forbidden pray
You could hold me tight in every pretended fray
And I will stand my feet
From bearing this unbearing heat

But I will always cry
Cry inside, hurt, and live this by
As your millions of miles away
My memories to you are as light as hay
Your memories of me are a long forgotten play
So what may I say

I live on a dream that cannot be
I'm chained to a love that will never run down on me
I will be trapped in love, dreaming for love to set me free
To only stare at her I plea
To only watch her eyes I see
To see her perishing smile I bear on knee

And to calm my wounds I write
So you may find this heart of me
And burn out its light
Maybe set this life to rest, erase the color
And free my soul, to run wild and free

So I am serious
I will forever perish my life for you
As it only aims to live to worship you

طالع و بخت

2009-07-10T11:16:00.007+04:30

این فلک، آه و اندوه به دلم دوخت
رنجیده خاطر ز نگاه من کیست
این زخم روانم تا کی، تا چه حد سرد
که دم ندیدم ز لب آرام فاعل
که خسته ام کرد از پرواز در داد
جدا از بوی خوش سر سپرده بودن
که این راز نهان را در من ببیند
که پاره پاره بودم زین لباس و این رخت
تا رانده شوم ز درگاه معشوق و دادار
دگر چشمی ندارم به روشنی، به فردا
آسوده، دگر خاکستری بی عشق و نگینم
در آتش سوختم، ولی آهی سر ندادم
در دیدن او، من اختیارا سر بدادم
و نیست طالعی به، زین لبخند والا

آواره، پاره ای ز قلب و تنم سوخت
مگر این گناه من چیست
مگر این اشک با زمین چه بد کرد
چرا پشت کرد این زمانه با دل
مگر من نبودم جز رانده ی باد
من آرمیده بودم، بی نیاز از زنده بودن
و کس ندیدم، به دستم یاری رساند
و سعی من بود تا نباشم غلام این بخت
اما نبودم جز مهره ای در دست آوار
و کوفته شدم من از درد خیال و رؤیا
که دگر تفاوتی نیست در کجا نشینم
و بی بال، دگر احساس را هرگز ندیدم
که شاکی، من چگونه باشم
که فدا شدم من در راه دو چشم زیبا

اشک سوخته

2009-07-10T11:13:00.002+04:30

قلب خونینم بر تنم زد
اشک سوخته اش بر چشم زد
سوز سردش بر دلم زد
جنون آن پری را بر سرم زد
ناله از بطن وجودش بر دمم زد
خیال مستی بر بال و پرم زد
رعشه بر دار آوار برم زد
در دم رفتن شعله اش بر غمم زد
سکوت پشیمانی بر لبم زد

دوری لبخندش آتشم زد
غصه ی دیرین آواز پرستو
آن بی گاه نگاه عارفانه
شوق دیدار نگاهش
پیچش موی آن نازک ندایش
حس غریب در صدایش
بوی فردوس در راه وقارش
فکر دوری بیش از فرافش
نا امیدی پیش از امید بر وصالش

I Used To

2009-04-15T18:09:00.001+04:30

I used to love a girl
A girl that was someday you

I used to love a girl
A love that was someday true

I used to love a girl
I girl who might have loved me too

I used to love a girl
A girl who never knew

I used to love a girl
I girl my heart saw through

I used to love a girl
A girl I has a chance and blew

I used to love a girl
A girl my distance was so much few

I used to love a girl
A girl who now I don’t know is who

I used to love a girl
A girl destiny had drew

I used to love a girl
I used to, or maybe I still do

Decision

2009-04-15T18:07:00.001+04:30

I have decided
I will forever be in love with you
All my worries, my doubt has glided
I will never pass your love through

I've been watching you lately
I see you haven’t changed a bit
You're the girl I love faintly
The color of my life has lit

The smile I thought was gone
Is sitting on those precious lips
The eyes my destiny had drawn
Still wear the same old grips

I have decided
I will come for you
It's as if I'm being guided
Now I'm sure it's true

You can reject
But I can't turn back
I have no choice to elect
Freedom is what I lack

This love is too real to deny
My heart is too weak to lie
My thoughts have no wings to fly
So I will never give in to cry

I can see the light so near
While I can't move more slow
I'm not the ones who steer
So I guess I have to wait for time to grow

I am but a simple boy
Who sees the girl he loves
As I dance with joy
In music to the singing doves

This is but a dead end road
As I can see the end
I will perish before love is showed
But something else might turn behind this bend

You're but my only girl
I can't decide but you
My everything, my precious pearl
The destiny I always knew

I am nothing but high
I can never say what'll hurt
So I enjoy the happy lie
And babble around and curt

I have decided
My choice, my life, my end is you
Our hearts just may be binded
As I did everything to let go of you

I will come, have no doubt
You will love me a day
I'm no drought

Again

2009-04-15T18:06:00.003+04:30

Is it all over
Is this the last it'll hurt
Can I open my eyes now
And walk out to dirt

Can I stop the staring now
Maybe turn my eyes away
Has me loving you reached the end
Is there going to be a sun full day

Can I see other beings again
Is there a world apart from you
Is there a color than red
Have I really stopped watching you

Is there another place to go
Have my tears started to show
May I think of life again
I thought I was broken from the blow

Weren’t your eyes the foretold traps
Was I just another pray
The mad highness of your scent
Was it just a random play

Is this just a dream again
Or am I awake at last
Can I remember that smile again
Or is that a part of the past

Have I actually let go this time
Or have I fell for new
This is another face of wanting you
Life is too short to count few

Curse This Love

2009-04-15T18:06:00.002+04:30

Curse this love
Sometimes its hard for me to bear
When my life passes through a glare

Awake at night
I seem to pass away the pain
Convince myself these things are sane

With tear I lie
Remembering the sweet old days
As long forgotten misty plays

Sadness so near
I trick myself to see but clear
While giving up is sitting right here

Deserted thoughts
Do I have a choice to run
Blinded by the light of my only sun

The wanted peace
To rest by the hope I plea
I suffer and beg on knee

The respect I own
I don’t care to loose myself no more
For the reason my life has wore

The hopeless dreams
An endless road to the world I see
I'm a free man, but without chains of love I can not be

So dark outside
I shudder to the cold I gesture in
To maybe cool the hell I've made by sin

And to watch her face
I die, oh I die from this the nearing flow
Of the bloodless veins, my love can't show

My Life

2009-03-01T22:20:00.003+03:30

As I sleep through my years of emotion
To my love that seems to have gone down in promotion
This hope's gone cold, there's no more excitement
Still I grab on, From the fear of frightment

As I stare into darkness
To my love that was just an amazing actress
And I remember my life, what went on
When did I fall in love, I never realized this dawn

You burned my tears
You didn’t remember me, at the top of my fears
Come to me, see this man
See my words, sealed into an empty can

I'm on my bed
None of my love's been said
I'll keep dreaming you, certain it's over
I deny my heart, now my mind is sober

Who were you, an angel in my eyes
When I saw life, even on dried falling autumn lies
While I still love you, there's no other way
Because I'm made by you, from the starting day

You will never know
My plans to capture, to love, to hold and so
They will die with me
As nothing else would set them free

As I'm high, glaring to music
Searching through memories, of my smiles to pick
How can I let go, when I still have nights
To think of you, where my sadness lights

Every part of me, every fiber of this being
Screams towards the sky, from the pain they're seeing
I smile with pain, how can I not
Come watch my rain, a lover in your lot

I'm the child of my Alice sky
To my thoughts to my taste and my
My sweet sweet dreams at day
To my hopes and pleads and pray

I'm the one who dreamed, but never woke up
Cause I couldn’t go higher, and I was never top
Will you ever know, what I dreamed
I cry when I remember how bright it seemed

I still have hope, I play myself
Disappointment is the end, what I'll pay myself
This is my way to go, I'm made this way
My life is your love, this is my clay

I could never stop, I've gone too far
But no one could realize they're drunk at the bar
I'll leave my heaven, but don’t you go
While you'll never be, cause you did never show

Love's Purest Core

2009-03-01T22:10:00.008+03:30

Tonight I feel so much in love
Tonight I feel so much above

Tonight I watch your pretty face
Tonight my heart feels an unusual pace

my love left, I thought it will never show
Tonight I promise I will never go

I promise that I will forever stay
That I won't sleep day after day

That my tears will forever flow
But my love will forever grow

That I'll love you while I have no hope
I will watch you pretending to cope

That I will forever sit quietly behind your door
Or maybe lie down from pain on your floor

That I will die if I think of letting go
I will fall for you even if you never know

Tonight I sink cause the ground won't hold
But I will forever stay, my heart is sold

Tonight I feel the light of dreams
The sweet sound of pebbles in streams

Tonight I can feel no more
Because I float in love's purest core

Where Sadness Piles

2009-03-01T22:10:00.007+03:30

Driving through the deserted hour
And I don't know if I can hurt any louder
To scream where no one would hear
So no one will see my drowning tear
To drop on my knees and cry
To try and answer my self why

Why did I ever have to fall in love

Its more than past midnight
And once again I've lost the light
I walk through this empty plain
Searching for someone to make me sane
Somewhere where it might rain
Somewhere where the night is plain

Tell me if the stars did shine
Because I see nothing but an abandoned line
I've only seen two lights that care
Her eyes that have made me flare
But I pretend I've never seen her face
Because my mind's been burnt away of space

The world moves on, who cares how I feel
Add to broken hearts, where they never heal
And I smile, smile to the idiot I am
Because I'm standing in the heart of a broken dam
It’s a one way road, my life is exiles
Nothing but cracks of desert, where sadness piles

Where sadness piles

I will suffer on my own
I will forever be alone

سیاه عشق گرداب

2009-02-25T21:26:00.004+03:30

و ما شکسته ایم از غم دنیا به دوش
و امید در دل یاران رو به تاریکی است
که سیلابی است تنها رو به سوی دریا ها
و تنها متوسلیم به دامان پروردگار
وز گناهان ما نباشد آکنده به خشم
و دل خسته ایم از مصیبت و درازی راه
و ز قهر ساقی رفته است و گم گشته فراط
که قلبمان در زیر آوار عشوه اش شکست
آه که در خاک هستی چه بی گوهر و پستیم
و سال ها است کز نورش کور و کبودیم
تا رسد به کوی جان باخته ی ما
توانمان اشک است و رؤیا بودن او
لم داده ایم و خیره ایم به پرده داران
که شاید شنویم آن نازک صدایش
و بی صداییم در سیاه عشق گرداب

آواز نرم قمری می رسد به گوش
مصباح خدا رو به خاموشی است
و اشک سرخ است حاصل رنج روز ما
و ما غوطه وریم در آه و درد روزگار
که نگیرد نور عشق را لحظه ای ز چشم
که ما پر غازیم در طوفان نگاه
لب تشنه ایم به قطره ای ز آب حیات
کز لبخند او دیوانه ایم و مست
یک پلک در آسمان ز فردوسش گذشتیم
کز تقدیر روی ماهش را آهی بدیدیم
ناله ای نیست ز جان پاره پاره ی ما
که ما را طاقتی نیست برای دیدن او
بر غنچه ی سرخ امید روزگاران
که شاید وانکی بینیم روی و جمالش
کز بهر آن روزیم زنده و شاب

A Lie

2009-01-28T22:31:00.000+03:30

Let me tell you a story
A story of sadness and worry
When my heart failed me and lied
Where I didn’t give a damn if I died

It was my hate that kept me sober
The love I used to dream was so much over
I stared at her not knowing why
Why my eyes must always lie

All my feelings, I would give my life for her
If she only cared, right then and there
She chose to turn, she didn’t say why
Why our love was just a lie

I sat at some lonely corner
Dark, where my hate grew even longer
I remembered the days, where I was so thought high
Where I was entertained by some pathetic lie

I am so so gone
And its just the beginning of dawn
I used to love this girl, love this lie
I keep thinking, the question just won't go by

There was no warning
The cruelness just came in swarming
I realized after love, I'm not her guy
She herself told me, my pretty love is just a lie

Insane

2009-01-28T22:30:00.001+03:30

A single star in the sky
My tears for you are still not dry
To you I blow a kiss goodbye
While this love is the only thing I would bear to die

I dream myself so far
Till I've reached my usual bar
While I bleed from my emotion's scar
I wonder just how weak we are

I think of what I did say
Of the price I have to pay
Now that everything is scattered like hay
I dream of the warmth of a sun full day

I lie heavy on bare ground
Try to paint my square in round
I know another failure is bound
While I watch the eyes of lusts hungry hound

I seem to smile from this pain
I don’t enjoy being left out under some usual rain
I smile to what hope would gain
While hoping is what's made me insane

Sacrificed

2009-01-28T22:28:00.001+03:30

I sleep above the ceiling
To help me keep dreaming
Maybe the stars will shine
And with the moon I will dine
And with the breeze I will sing
With my eyes on your finger I will put this ring

Up here the wind Is calm
Like it's sleeping under the leaves of palm
I see every light, every spark
But what does it matter, when I'm so dark

Up here the ground is light
For me to fly, there's no need to fight
My soul drifts so high
While all I wanna do is cry

I cry, so I won't be heavy
So maybe I'll just be ready
Come, take me in your arms
As I'm tired of taking harms

I'm alone, I choose to be
There's no other way left for me
In your eyes, my soul's not priced
Lean on me, as I'm to be sacrificed

Come Sit With Me

2009-01-28T22:21:00.000+03:30

Rain down on me
I care no more
Run down on me
On my fragile soul

Come sit with me
Listen to quietness
Leave me and go
Walk to forgetfulness

I'll be waiting here
Thinking of the pasts
I'll wait with my life
But even life never lasts

Do I really love you
I ask myself, but I don’t know
How my life with you will be
I dream myself, and forever go

For Love We Burn

2008-08-07T16:25:00.001+04:30

Aren’t we all just sad to let go
Of what we hated and tortured us before

We look back to our past, our tears
Of the plans we had, for the future of our fears

And now we're standing quietly, we just stare
To the longest blink, our life, that's so so rare

This is who we are, regrets or smiles
Lonely moments, or someone's hand for some miles

Our childhood we were so much free
Or spend crying, wanting to flee

Of the fights we had, ones we saw
Of the sweetest paintings our childhood draw

Of the smallest moments where we felt the end
That it can't get better or worse, we had to pretend

The feeling of love, someone to hold
The heat of anger where humanity is sold

Of the scenes we wanna forget, hardest times
The steps that went to waste, of stupid words and rhymes

Clips of embarrassment we never wanna show
The millimeters our height would grow

The friends we had, ones we forgot
Of the pictures we keep, ones that were never shot

The smooth hand of our parent's smile
Or the arguments they had, made our life a doubting while

Of sleepless nights, who didn’t dream
The scars and hurts that will never seem

The countless times we spent in school
Where we were popular, to our selves, or just a fool

Of the lusts we had, the looks that past
Of heart braking words that might forever last

Our achievements, we were so much glad
Or where we never got, it was so sad
The help received, we never knew
That it's not just luck, what difference of view

Of the hours spent, staring at mirrors
We cant see ourselves, where's our pillars

And now we're so thought grow
All our past has been shown

But what are we but candles to burn
For loved ones, we choose not to turn

For love we burn

My Heavy Head

2008-08-07T16:24:00.002+04:30

I lay my head on some table
When it's hard, I imagine them as fable
Staring into nothing
Hoping to find something
But I can't bear
So I sink into scare
So I can't close my eyes
So I'll have to watch your burning lies
But I can't decide what to do
When red is mixed into the deepest blue
I can't run there's no where to flee
So I put this head down, pretend I can't see
And I can't decide between her eyes and you
The feelings I have aren’t the ones I drew
So I don’t know if it's really true
That I have finally let go of you
So I put my head down, try to sleep
And pretend I don’t know I'm sinking deep
But why was I ever even born
To see the day my heart is worn
Worn out from fear and pain
From pumping tear into it's vain
Cause the sky is so lightless and dark
So I doubt if I ever saw a spark
And my heart keeps pumping but it cant decide
If it really wants to keep taking the same old ride
So I put my heavy head on the ground
And pretend I never heard a sound

The Same Girl

2008-08-07T16:24:00.001+04:30

Her love was the only thing keeping me together
You took that away
I thought you wanted to stick by me
But you just wanted to play
You left without goodbye, you didn’t wait
You didn’t hear what I have to say
Your eyes, they took me with you
And I followed, how could I have turned away
But I realized, you’re that same precious girl
The same girl my mind sees as day
The same girl I would give my life for
The same girl that's made me pray
The same girl who I thought was gone
The same girl who showed me there's another way
The same girl that's made me cry
The same girl that's born on the 9th of May
The same girl who will never know
The same girl that my heart for, I dream to pay
The same girl I dream every night
But when I wake up, the sky is grey
Why do I always dream
When dreaming has made my life a fray

عشق حقیقی

2008-08-05T14:51:00.002+04:30

که عشق چیست در دل گوهر بی صدا
تا ببینند عشق را خارج از رنگ لغت
به دنبال لیلی که رفته مگر در سراب
جان عاشقت را بسوزند بدون گناه
که نشان دارم از سرخی بی مرز نار
که دیوانگی ام مرا ز قافله ام رانده
در غربت دوری رها شده ام کور
وگرنه می سوخت آن سنگ به اشک خونین من
وز زمان ها و سال ها هم نیافتم امید
و با چشم خیسم به دیوارها خیره ام
نوری نیافتند بهر جان غمگین من

چه دانند آن عشق زبانان پر مدعا
کجایند آن عاشقان مجنون صفت
مگر فرهاد را که دیده بجز در کتاب
ندیدند که گر به معشوق کنی یک نگاه
بدان منم آن پنهان سوخته ی پای دار
که منم آن عاشق تنها مانده
که مست ز زیبایی آن اخترحور
که شرط بیستون را نیافتم به تن
که دانم که هرگز بدو نخواهم رسید
پس چرا در گوشه ای بی ناله ام
که سال هاست ز دریای مصباحین من

معشوق دیرین

2008-08-05T14:48:00.003+04:30

توبه در توبه شکستم آهسته
نا خواسته حریم عفتم رست
دیو آتش دگر بار لذت به سرم کرد
در کام دل و بی خبر از داد
وز افق عرفان یک لحظه پری دید
از دوردست نگاهی به سویم بفرمود
از دره ی گیتی به اختر بصرم داد
پس چرا ناگاه شکستم در زیر آن بار
که نادیده گرفتم هر ذره ای بخت
که آشفته شدم با لحظه ای ساز
که بی خود شدم از خود در آن دشت
با اندک ندایی از آن معشوق دیرین

غرق در گناه بودم و ندانسته
در گمان عاشق بودم و مست
تکرار عمل باز از خود به درم کرد
در آسمان بودم و پرواز مه و باد
بی گاه قلبم ز تپیدن سر بپیچید
آن عشق که از دیرینه به من بود
از گرداب عمیقم مددم داد
در عمر به دنبال نشانی بودم از یار
که ناخواسته افسرده شدم سخت
که به عشقش پروانده شدم باز
چه بودم چه شدم چه سرم گشت
تیره گشت در نظرم آن دوران پیشین

Can You

2008-08-05T14:38:00.001+04:30

Can you feel it
The air is thick
Our mind is going higher
Brick by brick

Can you see me
Hiding behind my wall
That's soon falling down
Because it's built too tall

Can you hear it
There's not a sound
There isn’t a scream loud enough
For the past to be found

Can you remember
The look in my eyes
When I was watching you
In the seven skies

Can you sense it
The fragrant of my love
That's long been lost
Searching for a dove

Can you tell me
What I've ever done
To deserve to sit alone
And stare at the fog for fun

Can you, will you
Do you even care
That I'll be lost for good
Without your love to wear

Waking Up

2008-08-05T14:37:00.002+04:30

I wake up, see you next to me
Sleeping quietly, I stare so silently
I would sit for hours, watch your face
As you are so beautiful, beyond all grace
But then you open your eyes, smile to me
And I'm filled with love, in an unending degree

And I know you'll be there, waiting
As I race home to you, while I'm fainting
From the think of you, from your eyes
From the scent of you, that's filled my skies
As I open the door, you're in my arms
I hold you tight, the worry calms

And in the streets, as I hold your hands
We walk slowly, across the lands
Until we're alone, I hear a sound
And that's your giggles, that's filled the ground
We lie on earth, watch the cloud
Moving above us, as we dream it loud

Dreams and deems, I only imagine
Dreams and deems, I only imagine

Because I wake up, you're not there
We weren’t ever even together, because life's not fair

So I look outside, to the morning city
Look so far, think of what I see

Let Me Be

2008-08-05T14:37:00.001+04:30

Again and again and again

Your love is back once more
More precious and stronger than before

And I know that it soon will leave
What is it that it's trying to achieve

Is it happy to see me cry
To push me to a limit I wanna die

Lying somewhere with nothing to feel
But you storming love that might never be real

How long is your way gonna go
How much do I have to suffer so you will know

Cant take this anymore, but I have no choice
When I hear nothing but your gorgeous voice

Will anything, could anything set me free
But you lying beside me and letting me be

So let me be in my alice dream
Let me be

غم عشق

2008-08-04T00:47:00.022+04:30

گویی ز عقل جدایم میکند
دردم در دل عاشق شور نیست
غم هجران شمع چرا سرد است
نور چشمش ز فراقش مرده نیست
همه تن به احساس اشک سر دهند
مگر طفل ز خدای مرد طرد است؟
نزد اشک به امید وصال آرمیده باشد
و غم عشق است والاترین شادی
که خواند مرگ فرجام فرزانه را

باز عشقش صدایم میکند
فهمم که نگارم دور نیست
چه گویند که عاشقی درد است
مگر قلب عاشق بدان زتده نیست
که عاشقان ز افسردگی پر زنند
گویند عاشقی در سن مرد است
که هر که درد عشق را در دیده باشد
که عشق است تنها ره آزادی
نفهمد کس زبان پروانه را

All Night

2008-07-29T16:05:00.003+04:30

And I stare at the ocean
While I'm spilling with emotion
The sun is so far away
It’s the end of another day
The sky has long gone red
And I'm still heavy with my head

Help me because I'm slowly dying
Dehydrated from years of crying
And the problems are always lining
And I doubt if there's another way than lying

There's no one here, I'm so alone
But I can't hold on, on my own
The wind is turning stronger, looks like a storm
But it's been so long since I've last felt warm
I keep standing, stare far away
I don’t care what happens no more, let come what may

Help me because I'm slowly dying
Dehydrated from years of crying
And the problems are always lining
And I doubt if there's another way than lying

The sky goes dark
My tears are the only spark
I stare at the limestone moon
To love I'm a slave, a worthless loon
The hours keep going round
I know I'll never be found

Help me because I'm slowly dying
Dehydrated from years of crying
And the problems are always lining
And I doubt if there's another way than lying

Now its early morning
The wind is quiet, but my head is storming
And I've been out all night
Standing on some beach, trying to but things right
But with all the hope, one thing burns this mind away
No matter how much you love, they might never feel the same way

I Love You

2008-07-29T16:05:00.001+04:30

I love you

I love you with all my heart
With all my life, from every part
With every fiber of my being
With the tiniest light I'm seeing
With every breath I take
With every blink I make
With every wind that blows
With every tear that goes
With every second I bear
With every feeling I care
With every soundless scream
With every hurting dream
With every smile you show
With every sense that'll grow
With every sleepless night
With the plainest white
With every time I die
With every time I'm high
With every star forbidden
With the madness I'm driven
With every memory I find
With every reason lined
With every living hope
With every minute I cope

I love you
Because I can't be you
We can never be one soul

What Do They Know

2008-07-29T16:00:00.000+04:30

Its 4 am
Even the night would sleep
But sleep is forbidden for me
And I'm tired of counting sheep

So should I forget you
So should I let go
They speak of love
But what do they know

In their heart have they ever dreamed
They haven’t even found a clue
While they say to love is to believe
So such words, while actions are few

And yet they feel proud of how they feel
They say their life is so dreams and full
They'll never see what love would bring
Their tears will never be whole

They say when she's gone I should let go
That there's plenty of fish in this sea
Why can't they even try to understand
That by her love I'm able to see

Fate

2008-07-12T13:09:00.003+04:30

May I tell you what I see in dreams
Where I see no angle or endless streams

I only see you and that’s all I handle
When I watch you who needs an angle

Most of times we never speak
Words don’t count when its your eyes that I seek

If I'm lucky you would give me a single smile
And I get to look at your face for a little while

In these past years, theses were all my dreams
Nothing else would exist in my Brightest deems

Because I was glad just to feel, just to see you
Because I didn’t even have a picture of pretty you

Maybe it was fate that you were found
Since I searched everywhere but you weren’t around

When I was giving up, loosing my hope
I saw a single string to your rope

Things came together but I also tried
But I cant depend on fate to string us tied

For My Dreams I Cry

2008-07-12T13:08:00.001+04:30

I dream so quietly
In it I smile so carelessly

Like I have no pain
Walking slowly through the lane

Holding your hand, staring your eyes
While there's not a single cloud in the skies

The wind blows so weightlessly
Her hair is blown so glaringly

She looks at me, and she smiles
We could keep walking for a million miles

I walk closer, touch her lips
She keeps watching, and my life lits

I touch her hand, she's in my arms
There's no one else, everything calms

So I move forward, she comes too
But deridingly, our lips pass through

Because I'm awake and I wanna die
So don’t blame me if for my dreams I cry

An Idoit

2008-07-12T13:07:00.002+04:30

I wanna cry when I think back
A million times I've been on this track

Remembering the sweet tone of your voice
In leaving you I had no choice

Now I'm left alone without you here
The love I thought I had is not so much clear

So I'm letting go but I wanna cry
But I find no tears because I'm not that kind of guy

I hurt inside, while it'll never show
And my feeling for you will never go

And no one would know what I feel
What I've felt of love, I will never heal

Except the ones who don’t know me
Never in their life will they see me

Because the tie I've made of you
Is too pathetic in this world to come through

Because I'm an idiot to even dream
To join the unending rows of your loving team

Because I'm insane to hope, insane to think
That people will understand me, even for a blink

Even though I'm awake and know pain now
I'll choose to fall in love with you, no matter how

No matter how many times I die, the years I hurt
Because without you I'm nothing more than durt

Supposed To Be

2008-06-28T23:46:00.001+04:30

I thought I knew what's love
But maybe I don't
I tried to hang on to her
But my heart just won't

I used to think
There's no other way
I never wanted there to be
I was happy not to see the day

I've started to doubt myself
What happened to me being true
It's really not my fault
The time I was with her was too few

Who would have kept dreaming
For all these years
While I'm still in deems
Of seeing her tears

It makes me laugh

Because what am I
To think she'll cry
She doesn’t wanna know
But maybe it’s a lie

It's not the first time
I've felt this before
But then I found her
And her love grew more

So I'll let this life
Take me
To wherever I'm
supposed to be

Ever In Love

2008-06-28T23:45:00.000+04:30

Your love just comes then leaves
Taking me for granted, careless of my greaves
But it's not your fault, you don’t even know
It's your beauty that’s trapped me in sorrow

But even after this, I always miss you
So I dream every day, of the moment I kiss you
I wait for the second your love comes back
Without you I don’t exist, my heart seems to lack

I'm no poet, I never care to be
But when I think of you, I'm every thing but me
Nothing seems important, when you're around
I gaze into your face then I hear no sound

And as I'm filled with hope and dreams
I open my eyes, realize they were worthless deems
So I get depressed, crawl to some corner
Cry without tears, try to remember my scenes of her

But after a while, these feeling go
As they've finished their torturous show
I feel nothing towards her face
All the feeling are gone, with unimagined pace

I still dream her to be mine
But I don’t love her, I see know sign
So I doubt if I was ever in love
Or I was really looking above

But I did love her, with every piece of mind
But now I've let go, she doesn’t seem to mind
Because she will never know, and I will never get there
But maybe she noticed, as I died for her

Tell Me

2008-06-28T23:44:00.001+04:30

Tell me that I have a chance
To get a simple turn on this dance

To dance with your eyes, while I'm high
When I only have seconds to die

But I watch you through my soul
Although it's been a long time up this wall

But no matter how far I get
The sun won't shine, and the rain won't set

Tell me there is such a thing as hope
That there's more to this world than mope

That there are happy endings in dreams
Because these could only be found in deems

Tell me I can over come my fears
That there might be an answer to my tears

That I'm not insane to love
And it's not wrong to count feelings above

Tell me my thoughts aren’t right
Tell me there's an end to every night

Tell me I might see her smile again
And she won't see me as any other men

That I have a chance to bear these years
And if I try hard enough some luck does nears

That she'll believe me when I say I do
That I will give my life for you

That I won't even stop to think
That I'll keep you higher even though I'll sink

That I will give every precious thing
If it will make you smile even for a tinge

So tell me that there's a chance she'll wait
That when I reach her it won't be late

Maybe

2008-06-28T23:42:00.000+04:30

Maybe I'm wrong to think of you
As the most beautiful girl I ever knew

Maybe it's right to let you go
To stop trying and let myself sink low

Maybe that’s fate for me to die
To watch you all my life without a cry

Maybe you're to far for me to reach
That I'm too high to find the beach

Maybe it's too late to think its true
That maybe one day your love will come through

Maybe I'll have to fly to see your face
I'll give my future for a second in that race

Maybe its stupidity to have some hope
That I'm an idiot to think I can dope

Maybe it's unforgiving to see leave
To watch your steps, they call me naive

Maybe you're too good to notice me
That it's impossible to set me free

Maybe my love is not so true
That I only love the idea of you

Maybe the sun will never rise
And I'll be in plain darkness and lies

Maybe we'll be together someday
That I'll find that single day

Maybe our lips will never touch
That I'm insane to think as much

Maybe sometime a day will come
And I'll find happiness as little as some

Maybe this mist will never blow
So my love will never show

Maybe I'll die in writing
Than going out there and fighting
Maybe I'm a coward, but I'm not by far
Because I know o will reach our star

Maybe I'll never hold your hand
But I'll keep trying even if band

Maybe my words will just be maybe
That I'll never be able to see

But maybe, just maybe
There exist another word than maybe

It's Her Soul

2008-05-05T11:38:00.000+04:30

I always used to say
If only she knew
But then she ignored me
When I tried to give her a clue

She doesn’t tell me why
Where did I go wrong
She's left me wondering careless
Of all those times I waited long

But I never even tried
I never said I want her
But maybe my words did
When I was high from her stare

So now I stand for
And watch her silently
I don’t want her to know
As it may make things worse undesirably

I even watch her people around
Maybe they'll show more
Because she seems to have changed
A bit since the years before

But should I really care
It's her soul I love
Because she's the closest thing
I've felt by love

beautiful

2008-05-05T11:37:00.000+04:30

It's so hard
To get to somewhere near
Somewhere where I can hear
Somewhere were there's something but fear

I am scared
To think we won't be
That I won't be able to see
That I won't bear dropping on my knee

There's no hope
For my hands to feel
For my heart to heal
My love doesn’t seem so real

And I bleed
Bleed tears in my eyes
When all the light around me dies
When I can't find an answer to these lies

And you're so beautiful
So so beautiful

Sometimes

2008-05-05T11:34:00.000+04:30

Sometimes I love this pain
So I doubt if I'm really sane
But I can't take this anymore
Everything is against me even you're

Sometimes I wanna let go
Maybe try to rise from below
To see how my life will slide
And stare at my self while I hide

Sometimes I don’t think of you
Maybe this love's not so true
I cant decide how I feel
If any of my feeling are real
How can love just pass away
At a moment without warning or delay

Sometimes I wanna give in
But in love that’s an unforgiving sin
Why cant we all choose the nearest bar
If we're blind then who's looking for a star

Another Chain

2008-03-12T02:34:00.000+03:30

He told you that he loves you
And that broke my heart
As I can never tell you that
Cause we're so far apart

He doesn’t know what love is
I bet it'll pass
But I worry that you love him
Then I'll have to kick his ass

The reason I stayed away
Was rejection when I was near
But now that’s all change
I'll run to you again and again without fear

The reason I stay away
Are doubts now that I'm far
We're too young to be forever
It's only a dream to try to reach our star

So I'll wait for a while
Then I'll come flying to your eyes
But I fear it may be late
Or that my love for you dies

He told you hey baby
I could guess what he's like
I never knew you like this kind
I hoped that he's only a hike

But you're not that kinda girl
You're too lovable to be
So the thought of him troubles me
Another chain of worries to me not being free

I'm No Saint

2008-03-12T02:33:00.000+03:30

You, you give me headache
But that’s my price
I'm depressed for you
But depression is nice

You may call me anything
And I'll be glad
Cause a swear is better than nothing
You ignoring me is sad

All I want to do
Is hold you in my arms
I don’t want anything in return
I wanna be a medicine that calms

I love you
But love is not what I ask
Maybe it's too much to expect
For now you accepting me is my task

I would do anything
If I could change the past
Maybe then you'd remember me
Maybe the memories would have last

But you have someone else now
Is that why you won't look at me
I knew time was slipping by
But I was tied and too tired to flee

I don’t expect anything
But don’t get me wrong
I would dream for you to love me
I hope that won't take long

And I'll wait for you
Even if you get married
I won't try to break you up
So you shouldn’t be worried

But there's more than emotions to me
Because I'm not saint
And I'm too broken to be
Since the second I see you I faint

I'll Wait

2008-03-12T02:32:00.000+03:30

And I'll wait, when there's no hope
So I'll bear, when I can't cope

And I will smile, when I see you
In his arms dancing all night through

My tears will drop, but they wont show
Depression will stay, until the mist will blow

To see you laugh, I will cry
To see you sad, I'd rather die

To be ignored, I'll love you more
To be rejected, I'll be back for sure

To have a chance, I'll brace myself
To try to keep up, I'll race myself

Maybe I'll break, but don’t care
I'm already broke, from that single glare

You don’t answer, but I don’t mind
We're far apart, so we can't bind

You push me away, and I'll stay back
But remember that I, wont leave you track

So I'll wait, like I have before
And I'll die, waiting at your door

The Only Chance I Blew

2008-03-04T02:40:00.001+03:30

I wait every day outside the door
For a single thing, I'm not even sure
Waiting for a second for you to pass
Waiting for a chance to see you outside class

And then every midnight I go to that place
Hoping that you've been there, hoping to find a trace
I'm just to hear your smell, just to feel your scent
Counting them as answers to the letters I never sent

And every time I see you, you have your pretty smile
I know it's not for me, I'm watching you from 4000 mile
But these little things pass me through the day
Dropping a tinge of color in my life of grey

And when I was around I had this feeling
I never thought it was love, I thought I'm dreaming
I thought it was a crush, maybe a bit of love
I never thought it will turn this way, I thought it'll shove

I didn't know better that once I'm trapped
It's more that bearing to try to think to adapt
But then I always thought, I always knew
That there was something rather small between me and you

I know that I did once touch your sense
That you did want me once, but I made a fence
I was too stupid to realize, so I passed through
And that was the only chance I had, and I blew

Expectation

2008-03-04T02:39:00.002+03:30

And I wanna cry
But the tears won't come out
I can just hold it all inside
Stay up staring at the walls all night

But I don’t deserve to cry
Why do you ignore me
When all I do is love you
With all my heart without a clue

Why do you break me
Cause you know I'll come back
Do you really have to do this
I never did anything, did I try to kiss

I just smiled
When all I wanted to do was scream
And yet you won't say a word
You pretend like I'm not heard

Is it fare for me to hurt
Is it right that I'm depressed
When all I expect is a blink
I never asked for your hand as I sink

Believe

2008-03-04T02:39:00.001+03:30

And I believe
I believe in Allah that gives me hope
For without him I can't bear or cope
For he's the only light I see
For he's the only reason my mind won't flee

To imagine to touch your hand
My fingers are stretched, where will they land
Without belief what would I have done
I would have gone blind staring at the sun

But I'm already blind from watching you
No one can blame me for loosing you
For the million times I've wrote your name
As it's the closest I can get, without blame

There's that guy and there's her eyes
A reply to my hi, she just denies
In this world I have no chance
To be beside her or even get a glance

I can only glare at the moon
Pray to god that I will see her soon
He gave me this love and it formed my heart
He has to answer it as he knew from the start

Without him I would have soon let go
For there wouldn't have been a hope, so
If we're not meant to be then why did I fall in love
If I'm suppose to be deaf then why do I hear the dove

For A Second

2008-03-04T02:38:00.001+03:30

Who are you, what are you
When did I fall in love with you
It was a blink and you were there
Looking too pretty for my heart to bear

Your eyes and that killing look
Without effort I was trapped to your hook
As your hair danced in the wind
I glared into you and the devil grinned

As your smile burnt my eyes
I never thought that my thoughts are lies
As you laughed and walked with your friend
I wondered if these times will ever end

So when did I become the past
How were the moments erased so fast
When did I went to fade away
You forgot me when you went your separate way

I always thought that I left you
But now I know that you went too
But did you for a second remember me
As my tears dropped beyond my burning degree

Again The Same Old Love

2008-03-04T02:36:00.000+03:30

Again I have fell in love
With the angle from the heaven above
She's the same girl but my love is new
Stronger after the past months flue

I never thought my love could rise
I always thought I was beyond the skies
But now I realize I was really near the floor
I was just dreaming to swim, sitting by the shore

I force myself to sleep all night
Hoping that I dream her light
But now I wonder if I'm maybe in some dream
I won't try to wake, want the things to be as they seem

She's even prettier than before
How that could be I'm not sure
Again the longer I stare at her
The harder it becomes for my heart to bear

Although its miles away to her eyes
I fill myself with all sorts of lies
Although the lies may someday come true
For now they're my way to stay alive, one of the very few

What Love Is

2008-01-29T01:24:00.000+03:30

Love is a beautiful willing pain
Love is the sunny days before the rain

Love is that special way
Love is a midnight by the bay

Love is the place we fall
Love is the answer to all

Love is not a feeling
Love is hope without meaning

Love is a life
Love is dropping quietly on a knife

Love is the most common pill
Love is staring with no will

Love is the reason we survive the fall
Love is the answer to the innocent's call

Love is the worst disease we find
Love is the strongest way we bind

Love is a look, when we leave our soul
Love is to put everything aside, for one single goal

Love is a plain duck dreaming to fly
Love is a crushed flower waiting to die

Love is dancing while we're high
Love is the reason we would cry

Love is a tear waiting to drop
Love is depression not wanting to stop

Love is to say no but not wanting to refuse
Love is a simple question but it brings confuse

Love is smiling while perishing inside
Love is a thin line while it looks so wide

Love is reaching where there's no end
Love is everything one could send

Love is to sacrifice all we'll ever need
Love is to slow down while we're in the lead
Love is to see the moon in the storm
Love is to feel alone while it's warm

Love is to fall into the sky
Love is to see without an eye

Love is to let go all we love
Love is to sink from above

Love is telling the truth while we lie
Love is accepting while we deny

Love is to sleep while we're wake
Love is to burn for someone's sake

Love is not anything
Love is everything

You Ignore Me

2008-01-29T01:23:00.002+03:30

Why do you ignore me
When I love you so much
Why don’t you wanna see
That I'm willing to start from scratch

To leave all the memories behind
To pretend I don’t know you
But how can I get them out of my mind
When I can never show you

I still don’t know if that's on purpose
I did everything I could to get your attention
But all I did was make a clown on a circus
And sit staring at you pictures on your detention

You broke me but I'll keep coming back
I don’t care if you'll say no
Giving up hope is the one thing I lack
But why do you hate me, why am I the foe

But then I know it's not hate
You said no to that as well
So I can only stand by the gate
And hope that one day, I will ring the bell

Took Some Time

2008-01-29T01:23:00.001+03:30

What's wrong with my life
As I'm thinking back over you

Why do I seem so high
As I'm leaning next to you

Why can't I ever fly
When I try to make sense of you

Why do I wanna cry
When I know I can't get over you

Why do I wanna die
As I'm staring up to you

I thought that it would pass
But I kept holding on to you

I thought that I could flee
But I kept getting near to you

I thought that I could see
But it was an illusion made of you

I though that we could be
But that changes when I'm watching you

I though that you'd remember me
But it took some time for you

Love and Hope

2008-01-29T01:22:00.000+03:30

Why do we expect warmth from the sun
Why can't we drop everything and run

How can I expect her to wait
When I wonder if it's already late

Could we really sit and hope for fate
By just dreaming, no one will reach the gate

Do we really wanna live
When there's nothing for us, we always give

Why was there love at the start
Who ever created such beautiful pain of art

When will the world reach its end
We keep trying, we fight and defend

Tell me why there's only agony
Why do we depend on hope and stare at the sea

Tell me why we act so high
When we know we'll all just die

In this world we're never free
Even if we have the golden key

Till there's love then there's hope
We can only try, see if we'll cope

So I will always love and hope

I Found Her

2008-01-29T01:21:00.000+03:30

I found her today
After the long search night and day
I wasn’t sure at the beginning
She was in another guy's arms, they were kissing

She responded after a day or two
I was on top of the world when I knew
She didn’t remember me first away
All the things I thought we had just faded away

She remembered me after a while
But only small memories from my file
I asked her if she remembers more
She hasn’t answered since that last call

I was depressed for several days
I could only lie on the floor, thinking of our days
I don’t know if it's cause that guy
Or that I just passed through her eye

The day I found her, I thought I'll be glad
But when I did find her, I just went mad
The walls won't seem so thick and tall
When you're not thinking about your fall

I Can Only

2008-01-29T01:20:00.000+03:30

I can only dream
I can only dream to be with you
I'll give all my life for a second to be true

And I can only think
Every second I'm alone
Is it selfish to think of you as my own

And I can only cry
Every time I realize you're not there
Every time I find another string of your hair

And I can only remember
The hypnotism of your smile
My time around you only lasted for a little while

And I can only lie
Lie on the floor and picture you
Would you feel the same way if you ever knew

And I can only gaze
Gaze at the photos I found of you
You seem so happy, such a pretty view

And I can only stare
Stare so hard at the stars
While I'm trapped behind these metal bars

And I can only hope
For a day you'll marry me
That you'll rest your head on my knee

One Red Rose

2008-01-20T01:11:00.003+03:30

I never thought
I never thought to fall in love would turn so hard
To realize the pain when I'm young at the very start

But then it's true
That every bit of me is because of you
That everything you told me was just another clue

Then every night
I lye on my bed but you're out of sight
I'll keep the fight on though I'm afraid of height

But then I thought
I thought you'd remember me
I thought you and me could really be

Then it's nice
To feel so depressed to feel the ice
To remember the beauty of your eyes

Although you're in someone else's arms
Now I'm not sure what really harms
The pain of love or the hope that comes

Then my tears
Bring back all of my long gone fears
They bring back the sounds that my heart just hears

And then I'm mad
Although I do nothing but pretend I'm sad
That I let go off any hope I had

But then who knows
That it's my love that keeps you so close
That I'll say no to any other girls

Even if they line up in a million rows
Cause in my garden there's just one red rose
So always remember, my love for you just never goes

Will There Ever Be a Day

2008-01-20T01:08:00.000+03:30

Will there ever be a day
When I hold you in my arms
Will there ever be a day
When I run after you through the yellow farms

Will there ever be a day
When I hold your hand
Will there ever be a day
When we lye together on the sand

Will there ever be a day
When the sun is bright
Will there ever be a day
When I'm your light

Will there ever be a day
When the rain would stop
Will there ever be a day
When my tears won't drop

Will there ever be a day
When we're alone
Will there ever be a day
When my love is shown

Will there ever be a day
When I feel your love
Will there ever be a day
When you finally look down from above

Will there ever be a day
When there are only dreams
Will there ever be a day
When no one screams

Will there ever be a day
When I could fly
Will there ever be a day
When you can't deny

Will there ever be a day
When we're together
Will there ever be a day
When we're forever

Will there ever be a day
Or is it just nights

Fade Away

2008-01-20T01:04:00.000+03:30

Although I tried to hold on
My love did fade away
I don’t feel as I used to
My life has turned another way

I never thought this day would come
I thought it would last forever
But it dropped down quietly, unnoticed
Slowly as a floating feather

I knew time would steal
I forced my self to stay awake
I fell asleep after a while
The lullaby was not a fake

My pumping heart has reached its end
Maybe that’s because you're far away
But my love may come back
If I see you another day

I still do love you, but it's not the same
You're still my dreams, you're my life
You're still the girl I only love
But aren't I just dancing over the broken knife

Maybe I'll marry another girl
Maybe I'll love her with all my heart
But I'll never forget that it was youThat formed my true love, at the start

Quiet Devils

2007-12-27T19:08:00.001+03:30

The devil is burning
His eyes are all sealing
Light has been taken away
It's the price he has to pay

The black demon is sprinting
Purple smokes he is screaming
He doesn’t have a trace of feeling
In his life there is no such thing as meaning

What are we but quiet devils
Drunken to sleep by rhymes and riddles
The world turned us from our nurse
We choused to scream, we wanted the curse

The sun is blond but it will soon turn red
The hounds of evil have not been fed
The satisfaction is far from met
Their desire is larger than their net

And it should break our hearts
To see the cruelness of some human arts
To see the scenes of torture
To see the burning of culture

And it should make us die
To see the innocent cry
If only some can fly
Then what's the point of being high

We need to burn all devils
Replace them with smooth pink peddles
We should destroy all fake medals
Lets not act as cripples evil widows

Thinking Back

2007-12-27T19:07:00.001+03:30

As I think of those times we had I die
As I think of our memories I could fly

As I remember the last time I cry
As I remember my life with you I was high

Although I know it's over I deny
Although there is no hope I will try

I will give every thing just to hear that hi
To realize you're gone I ask why

I only love you, love's not something we could buy
You are my life, my everything, the spark in my eye

The river we had has long gone dry
The sun of our days has long gone shy

I keep dreaming I know it's a lie
I keep hurting from our broken tie

Without you I'm nothing, there is no I
You were my filling, I'm just an empty pie

I hid my feelings, the crime of the blackest dye
My punishment is to burn, in my self I must fry

I am nothing now, just a small fly
As I'm thinking back to the day when I was your guy

Angles Beauty

2007-12-27T19:06:00.000+03:30

The sun is rising
Breaking the frost over the world's icing
Soon darkness will be ripped and shattered
Where is the hope for our hearts to be gathered

I had hope when I was near
Sleepless nights are still here
When my aim was clear
I stepped up with no fear
I made a mistake, I dared to speak
The turn of my life was made when I was weak

I do not love to feel good
When we are falling we never could
We're in the sun yet we seek a candle
We live our life but we never find the handle
We die because we're born
Our lives to be a misery the devil has sworn

On the ground there is nothing but doubt
We think we're in the sea, but we're on a drought
When you have nothing but to dream and wait
You will finally lose the key and gate
The angles beauty will fade away
After you're separated from heaven's way

Do I Love You

2007-12-27T19:05:00.001+03:30

The sky is grey
Blocking the suns way
I look out the window
I can only hope for a shadow
But its you face again
Catching me in the race again

And I love you
I love you with all my heart
But do I

I thought I was high
Never coming down from the sky
But I was dragged by the rain
Coming down with endless pain
I couldn’t realize any sound
Until I fell hard on the ground

And I love you
I love you with all my heart
But do I

For another girl to come, I never dreamed
For her to touch my heart, it never seemed
I thought it would pass, but harder it pulled
Till it got to the point, my heart was sold
You are far away, further than to reach
But she's here, sitting silently by the beach

And I love you
I love you with all my heart
But do I

Maybe I have, fell in love again
Maybe it's another part of going insane
Maybe it's just another dream
Maybe it's that forgotten steam
Maybe someday we'll be together
Maybe the second will take forever

And I love you
I love you with all my heart
But do I

There will never be a time when you come into my arms
I could never hold you, to keep you from all harms
But I will love you forever
Even if love is gone from my weather
I will never forget your love Even if there is another girl in my life

Staring

2007-11-26T16:07:00.000+03:30

Staring at the dawn
All life is gone
New eyes must be worn
Whenever tears are born

Staring at the sky
Wonder if I can fly
I have to let go of my tie
I still don’t know why

Staring at the sun
All I need to do is run
They warned me it's no fun
But what matters when you're looking down a gun

Staring at the moon
Still there some hours till noon
Does it have to leave so soon
Bruised by the fight in June

Staring at the air
It’s the wind that can't share
To go forward I never dare
I know we'll never be a pair

Staring at the sound
The world is going round
Life is nothing but a wound
Until a trace of love is found

Staring at the town
Sitting high I look down
We all seek the crown
Although we know we'll drown

Staring at my girl
Precious more than pearl
They see her hair, I see its curl
Although she's a fish I will never curl

Staring at my life
I fell on the sharpest knife
What made me come alive
But that’s the secret of my love

I Will

2007-10-30T14:27:00.000+03:30

The moment I get of the plain
I will come after you

I won't care if you're in the rain
I will run after you

I won't eat, I won't drink, I won't breathe
Till I get to you

I will see no one, I will never speak
Until I'm next to you

I have no idea of where you are, near of far
But I will die to find you

I will search every dark forest, the brightest sun
I will get a glance of you

I will walk a thousand miles, I'll cross the longest Niles
If it would mean to hold you

I will jump off the bridge, I will dive into any cliff
If there would be a trace of you

I will leave heaven, I'll pass through hell
If it would mean to find you

I will give my arms, I will blind my eyes
If it would mean my heart to feel you

But for now I'm trapped, I won't realize it I'm tapped
Because I'm insane, in the world where there is nothing but pain
I will see you again

stay

2007-10-30T14:26:00.000+03:30

Don’t go, don’t leave, stay with me
I can't bare watch you walk away
It's still not time, consider to stay

We can watch the sky
Deeper and deeper we can fly
Stay with me
You're my red rose in my garden of white
I can only see you, you will never leave my sight

Don’t go, don’t leave, stay with me
I can't bare watch you walk away
It's still not time, consider to stay

Your love stings, from my heart
I have felt it from the start
I never came closer, I never could
I never felt you, I never would
Because I left you, you stayed
When I came back, it was too late
Maybe your heart was filled with hate
Why did I leave, I will never know
We were on our cloud, why did it snow
We weren’t together, but we weren’t also apart
I could feel something, maybe I touched you heart

Don’t go, don’t leave, stay with me
I can't bare watch you walk away
It's still not time, consider to stay

There was a time you were walking
I was behind you, I was stalking
I could have reached you, but I was too scared
It never came to my mind, I never thought you cared
Maybe someone else has you, maybe you have him, but

Don’t go, don’t leave, stay with me
I can't bare watch you walk away
It's still not time, consider to stay

What I See

2007-10-21T00:49:00.000+03:30

Here are the things I see when I look at you
Maybe these are the things that made me fall in love with you

I see your dark brown hair
Dropping
Kind of curly after your shoulder
Then my eyes are dropped to your smile
When your lips are separated, showing your teeth like a different isle

How can I forget your forehead and eyebrows
Above you dark brown eyes, which have a light of countless skies
Your look lifts me higher than any mountain
When you look away I'm dropped like any other fountain

You're a bit shorter than me
I could hold you looking down to an endless sea
And there is the way you talk
Your kindness it takes me for an endless walk
There is the way you act, how you behave
How you laugh, everyone else seems to live in a cave

Your hand is as warm as summer's weather
Your face, as soft as a floating feather
You walk as a peddle dancing in the wind
When you're in the middle my eyes are helplessly pinned

I adore the way you dress in those pretty clothes
You stand out for me from a crown of untidy rows
I love the colors that you love, I love the way you think
I love how you're sensitive, but your love is what makes me sink

What don’t I love about you, nothing comes into my mind
They say no one is perfect, they also say love makes us blind
But why should I listen to them you're the best girl anyone could find

I never get tired I could look at you for years
And when I do close my eyes darkness takes over with my fears

I don’t know what you look like now
But I don’t care, my love is passed all life now
I just love you because you’re
A soul I would give my life for
Wherever, whenever, however, and forever

World Of Anti Love

2007-10-21T00:48:00.000+03:30

We wake up in the morning
Realize we're still sleeping
Cause they don’t know what we're feeling
Our heart goes weaker and weaker, it's not healing

We are a candle, burning alone
Our love is not around us, we're on our own
We fall as kids, we never get grown
In this cruel world love can never be shown

We choose our way, go across the bay
Don’t know what we'll say, we scatter like hay
It's not something we may, we try to reach the day
We're lighter than any ray, but they'll reach us till May

We shouldn’t skip the bill, it's something we will
We'll sprint across the hill, we'll go past the mill
Not knowing we'll go ill, for our cure there is no pill
We could just stand still, but to survive we must kill

We'll sharpen our ear, go quit to hear
They have the right gear, their the ones who steer
The air is clear, except the smell of fear
We will drop like tear, if they come any near

We will die of our lust
Love wasn’t even a must
In our den we'll rust
In no time we'll turn to dust

This is what the world of anti love is all about
What can we do, we are on a drought
There was a time we did shout
Did anyone hear us, we all sunk in doubt

True Love

2007-10-15T15:14:00.000+03:30

I want to be with you
I want to hold your hand
This is true love
It's not dropping sand

Everyday I think about you
Every small thing reminds me of you
With every falling leaf, there is my falling tear
With every cold wind, there is my freezing fear

If have lost you it's not my fault
If I'm still alive it's from my cult
Destiny drew us apart
From our love that did never start

I cry for you, I'm hurt for you
I die for you, I'm lost for you
But you're unaware
When will my ride end in this lightless fare

When I let you go, I thought I would forget you
But deeper and deeper I started to miss you
What was I before I found you, how did I feel
I cant imagine to go back, my heart was hard as steel

Would my love had changed if I had had told you
Would I have changed if you ever knew
But now I'm quietly mad without having a clue
Of a place that I will finally find you

Lost

2007-10-15T15:11:00.001+03:30

I'm lost on the line of choice
Waiting for a spark, maybe even a voice
Will the string ever show me the way
Is it enough to pull me out into the day

I didn’t choose to fall, nor to sink
The hand of reason nodded me into this ring
My hear wasn’t strong enough, it had to perish
Echoes of you name, was the only thing it could cherish

I stand hours in the rain
Trying to wash away the sorrow, maybe the pain
But what ever burns from the inside
Will never be washed out from the outside

My cure is to be with you
But I'm even lost trying to find you
You're my dream but you're also real
You're different from anything else I feel

I would give anything to go back in time
To tell you, to want you, is that a crime
But that will only happen in my dream
You're far away as far as it may seem

Because you’re my only hope in this stormy sea
You can only pull me out, cant you see
That you’re the only way I could be free
I will wait for you knowing my life is something you will never be

Reality

2007-10-15T15:09:00.000+03:30

They say that time heals
But I say that it steals
I don’t want my love to be gone
I want to feel my heart
When I stare aimlessly at the dawn

Sometimes it feels nice to be hurt
To lay on the ground, with sadness to flirt
I kind of feel happy when I'm alone
Because it's these times that my love could be shown

My whole life is made from loving you
And most of my love is from not seeing you
Do I want my love to fade away
After it's gone will I ever be able to pray

Its reality that with love comes pain
But we all choose it even though we'll go insane
They can call us mad but we shouldn’t care
We are all blind from the hard staring glare

We are all drunk for going too far
But heartaches are caused from this bar
We will go drunk again and again on our way
We choose the pain, who is time to take that away

Wonder

2007-09-30T15:12:00.000+03:30

Sometimes I wonder
That if it's right to wonder
To think of someone else
Maybe even love her
Is it betrayal towards my love
To let go of you
To stop wanting you
But that will never happen
I will always love you

Sometimes I wonder
What my life would have been
If I didn’t see your pretty face
When my heart was so clean
But sometimes I wonder
If you're the one for me
Wouldn’t it be easier
If I let you go
And try to be free

My life has turned empty
From not being with you
Have I held on too long
Or am I gonna see you
Should I keep your true love
And hang on to my only life
Or is it time to let go
Will I ever be sure

There is another girl
She's beautiful and kind

She has your beautiful smile
And sometimes I wonder
That my life would be with her
Could I ever let you go
You're far away but she's here
But then it always hits me
After a dream or a tragic seen
That I have always loved you
No matter how long its been

Sometimes I wonder
If another girl could come
And steal my love from you
It doesn’t seem to add or sum
It doesn’t matter how long I think
Its always the same the deeper I sink

I will always love you
Even if there would be someone else
You are my first and true love
You are how my wonder was curved
I will always love you
Until the day I hope its not true
I will come after you
I'll search everywhere
Where ever I might see you

But sometimes I wonder
If I will ever kiss you

Moments

2007-09-30T14:45:00.000+03:30

Would you listen, if I tell you my story
Those times I admire, my times of glory
Of those little things, moments I remember
From my love for you, when my heart did surrender

I never came close to liking you
I fell in love the first moment I found you
I couldn’t keep my eyes off when you were around
When will you become my queen, for me to be crowned

You're the only girl in my dream
You're the cherry in my life of cream
Your are the reason in my road of sign
You are my early morning sunshine

I want you to listen, and I want you to know
But every time I want to tell you, my bearings are dropt like snow
I want to keep my your love inside
And yet for it to be shown outside

But my love is too true to be explained
My memories are too large for paper to be stained
My feelings are strong but my heart is broken
I tried to tell you, but other words were written

Tired

2007-09-17T10:14:00.012+03:30

Everyone is sleeping
But I'm awake
I'm thinking of you
By the silent lake

I cry with no tears
I have no control of my body
It's my heart that steers

Could I wait any longer
For the time to hold her
I'm hurt, is that fair
When she doesn’t even know that I care

Every morning, when I open my eyes
Everything seems stormy when I look at the skies
But what can I do
The world is so cruel

Am I meant to be with her
Will I ever feel her

All I seem to do is hide
When I feel it inside
Could I have you by my side
I'm tired from this long ride

Sometimes I wonder
If I really want her
Would there be someone else
If I ever lost her

Is it your love that I need
Without it could I imagine to concede
But I feel and know something
That my flower of feeling
You were the first to plant its seed

I would consider no one else
If she was here
But she's over the seas
Where I can't see her

All I know is that my heart needs you now
Before it would burn
And bury its love underground
Where there is no sound

Will I Ever

2007-09-17T10:14:00.011+03:30

I love you
I love you so much
I care
It may not show much
It’s a scare
The thought of losing your love
I cant bear

Will I ever be beside you

Do you remember me
Baby do you think of me
Maybe you're even in love me
I doubt it

Will I ever taste your love

The thought of holding your hand
To walk by you on the sand
Will i ever reach that forbidden land

Will I ever feel your love

I will come after you
I will try to find you
I will give my life to see you

Will I ever be with you

From your dark brown hair
To your warm breath of air
To your beautiful smile
They seem away more then a mile

Will I ever hold you

Will I ever tell you

Will I ever see you

Will you ever feel the same

Imagine

2007-09-17T10:14:00.010+03:30

Could I imagine
What it would feel to be by your side
Could I imagine
What it would feel to hold your arm
I day dream about you all the time

Could I imagine
If you felt anything for me
Could I imagine
If you ever loved me
Could I imagine
If you ever felt my heart
You toured me apart

When you told me you know that I want you
I just smiled I walked right passed you
What did you feel at that moment

It's been a long time and you're far away
Maybe you would listen to what I have to say
Is it ok to love someone you've never been with
Is it right to have this kind of feeling

I don’t even have a proper picture
You're the only girl I could picture
They could call me sad but I don’t care
I would give anything just to touch your hair

Your love is tearing my heart apart
And if I had a choice I would still fall in love
With you again and again

I don’t even know where you are
Do you remember me now that I'm so far
Are you with someone else now that I've been flown apart

I didn’t even have a chance to say goodbye
Or did you notice that I've left the sky

I could only imagine

My Love Story

2007-09-17T10:14:00.009+03:30

I don’t know when I fell in love with you
When I realized that you’re the most beautiful
Girl on earth

I kept looking at you in the class
When you looked back I would turn my eyes
For a year this kept going on
This love was never gonna be shown

I don’t know why I told that girl
How I feel, that you’re my girl
She told the class when you weren’t there
They were all making fun but I didn’t care

The boy who liked you
Asked if it was true
I said yeah
I wasn’t gonna give up on you

I don’t know if they ever told you
Cause the next day you pretended
You never knew

Then in the gym the same girl told you
I tried to stop her but you said you knew
You said it cause how beautiful you are
You were right you touched my heart

Some weeks later, when I was walking
So hopeless, thought I was nothing
This girl came, Started walking by me
She told me, that you actually want me
I didn’t believe, I had to doubt it
She wasn’t a close friend to you' I couldn't help it
I thought if it was true, you would tell me
But you didn’t, you had to kill me

Now after five years
I regret those days
When I could have had you
We could have been so great

Maybe I will find you someday
I still don’t know what I will say
I would keep my love from you
Till I can make it feel inside you

To love me the same way I love you

Dream

2007-09-17T10:14:00.008+03:30

My life is so empty
Yet it seems so full
I can't stop thinking
About my fall

I had a dream last night
It was about the thing I hide
It funny how a dream could mess with your mind

We were sitting on this bench
I was looking deep into you face
And then we finally kissed
It was the best moment I could ever taste

It all seemed so perfect in the dream

And then I suddenly woke up
When I realized I was so broken inside

At first I was avoiding you
Not telling how much I care about you
I don’t know I was so stupid

In the dream you came around me
You asked me out I was so happy
You said that you really love me
And you're waiting for the time to have me
That you're so broken the way I am

I thought it was finally over
The time I waited to have her
But I was wrong

Oh my god
You gave me this love
So answer it
Now that I'm broken inside
Give me the one I love

Because her love
Is the only thing
That could put an end to my life

It was so perfect in the dream

I'm living in this Alice stream

Maybe she is waiting for me

Burning

2007-09-17T10:14:00.006+03:30

Lately I've been thinking and forcing my self around
To realize what we had will never count
When I loved you I asked you out
You said no and left me on to ground

I'm burning everyday
Why didn’t I just say hey
I love you I want you today
What more did I have to say
You’re my only order on the sale

One day you came to fancy me
You asked me out I thought you messing me
I said I don’t know maybe

Do I have to show it when you not with me

I'm burning everyday
Why didn’t I just say hey
I love you I want you today
What more did I have to say
You’re my only order on the sale

May be I need time to rest
Then I can really open me chest
I will tell you how I feel
My heart is what you did steal
But till then my lips are sealed

I'm burning everyday
Why didn’t I just say hey
I love you I want you today
What more did I have to say
You’re my only order on the sale

I'm really lost in this world
Why didn’t I say that word
Maybe we were together now

Dancing under the Alice sky

I'll be waiting for you with my life
Please don’t ask how

Without you

2007-09-17T10:14:00.005+03:30

Why do I have to fall in love
When I know that I won't survive
But what ever I seem to do
My life just doesn’t have a meaning
Without you
And sometimes I feel like screaming
Because I don’t have that kind of feeling
And the wounds you made are not healing
Without you

Without you I'm in a coma
When I know I can't come over
And hold you up high in my arms
And kiss you with my only life

I see your face in the light
When my body feels so light
But I'm just lying on the ground
And I'm trying to reach your sound
You know my soul feels so empty
When you're not around

Without you I'm in a coma
When I know I can't come over
And hold you up high in my arms
And kiss you with my only life

You know that I can never fly
So why do you leave me there to cry
Just come down from the Alice sky
Take my hand and I will lift you high

Because

Without you I'm in a coma
When I know I can't come over
And hold you up high in my arms
And kiss you with my only life

Insane

2007-09-17T10:14:00.004+03:30

I lay on my bed
Alone
While think about you
You're gone
I still love you after five years
I can tell from my tears

Your beauty struck my heart
When we were apart
Maybe I'll see you someday
But I know its not today
I will always love you
Because I have gone insane

And the thing that hurts the most
Is that we never got together
I was drone apart like a feather
Love hurts like no other pain
Somehow I fall in love again

Your beauty struck my heart
When we were apart
Maybe I'll see you someday
But I know its not today
I will always love you
Because I have gone insane

When I close my eyes
You're in my dream
The waking up is
When I wanna scream
I thought I was over you
But that always changes
When I get around seeing you
I can only wait
And hope it not too late
To have you
Oh to have you

Your beauty struck my heart
When we were apart
Maybe I'll see you someday
But I know its not today
I will always love you
Because I have gone insane
Insane because of you

Get Together

2007-09-17T10:14:00.003+03:30

The first letter of our names
I noticed it matches
When we are together
The baby of love hatches

We were together
For nearly four years
I have that that feeling
That nobody hears

Baby I want you to come to me
Shake me and set me free
Don’t leave me here you have to see
That you're the only she
For me
Let's get together
Forever

We never got to kiss
We never even held hands
But baby I felt it
Something that always
Drew me back

You're the only one I love
It's something I always hide
So come near me at my side
Let's get together
And fly to the sky

Baby I want you to come to me
Shake me and set me free
Don’t leave me here you have to see
That you're the only she
For me
Let's get together
Forever

Every second the clock ticks
The glue of love still sticks

I will be waiting for you every night
On the shore beside the cold tide

I Need You

2007-09-17T10:14:00.002+03:30

What can I do
You're far away
You've forgotten me
So what can I say

I'm wondering
What you look like now
I don’t even know
If you're with someone else

But maybe there's a chance
That I can get a glance
Of your pretty face
Outside this sense

I need you baby
I see that clearly
Maybe I will kiss you someday
And I'll be on the train
When I know I'm insane
So come and dance with me under this rain

And no matter how hard I try
I can not stop to cry
I want to tell you but I'm too shy
Around you

The storm of love struck my life
How do you expect me to survive
I need you after this
Come and turn me alive

When I close my eyes
It's not a surprise
When I see you
In my arms

I need you baby
I see that clearly
Maybe I will kiss you someday
And I'll be on the train
When I know that I'm insane
So come and dance with me under this rain

Reason To Hide

2007-09-17T10:14:00.001+03:30

I'm hiding
In my shell of feeling
No one knows
How much I'm taking
Of this love
Why should I survive

I'm never gonna see you
I'm never gonna kiss you
I'm never gonna touch your lips
I feel so cold inside
There's not a reason to hide
I'm gonna move with the tide
Till I get a glance of your light

Life doesn’t have a meaning
When you're not around
I wish you could hear my sound
I remember your
Long brown hair
This feeling I have
I'm never gonna share
Why didn’t I tell you
That I care
Oh life is never fare
Because

I'm never gonna see you
I'm never gonna kiss you
I'm never gonna touch your lips
I feel so cold inside
There's not a reason to hide
I'm gonna move with the tide
Till I get a glance of your light

One day I will come after you
I don’t know if you'll remember me
Oh god why did you have to render me
Into this life
With her love

I'm never gonna see you
I'm never gonna kiss you
I'm never gonna touch your lips
I feel so cold inside
There's not a reason to hide
I'm gonna move with the tide
Till I get a glance of your light

Secret Addiction

2007-09-17T10:14:00.000+03:30

I love you but why won't I tell you
I wake up In the middle of night
Your face is the only thing that comes into my mind
I see you in my dreams but I could only wipe off my tears

So come into my arms
I love you with my heart
You don't know it but every time I see you I die
My secret addiction is how I feel
And I know I will never heal

I know I can't be with you but somehow I keep loving you
How long could I take this, I can't say
Gosh love hurts the worst way
Come free me from this pain
You're the only medicine I could take

So come into my arms
I love you with my heart
You don't know it but every time I see you I die
My secret addiction is how I feel
And I know I will never heal

I kiss you through the air
It's the only thing I can't bare
And every time I try to fall in love
Your still there
I can't do anything but cry
Cause you're the love of my sky
I could sit till dawn and look at your face
Because your love is my life's grace
So come into my arms
I love you with my heart
You don't know it but every time I see you I die
My secret addiction is how I feel
And I know I will never heal

I would love you forever
Even though I know you won't be there
I'll live with your hope
Because I know it's the only thing that I can hold
My secret addiction is how I feel and I know I will never heal