Where Am I ?

Define me happiness
Define me…
Define me a dream
Define me the feeling
Of an illusion, as it may seem

Remind me of love
Is it a walk by her side?
Maybe touching her hand
The dream of the ocean
To reach the sand

Define me hope
Of endless nights
Of being high
To be drunk from the scent
Of the dream to watch her eye

Picture me a smile
Bring me a glass
Of fine red wine
Sing me of the winds
And dare me to cross the 7th line

Seduce me a tear
Another from my eye
It's been long since the rain of my Alice sky
The warmth has blinded me
I've grown careless why

Leave me
Leave me and go
Leave me and pursuit yourself a light
To follow, to dream, to feel, to live, to maybe… to maybe love
And forget of me, when you reach such joy and sight

My All

Will I be punished if I kiss your skin
Will my soul be sacrificed
Will my youth
Will my hope
Well let it be
As if that is the last thing I do

If it’s the last thing I do
Well let it be

Take my hand
Take my arm
Take my legs
scatter my body if desired
But leave my eye
My staring eye
As I need to live
As my life is to watch her soul
The unbearing beauty that’s made me mad
From the scent of her hair I perish
From the memories I drown
From the look of her I die
From the sound of her gorgeous voice I scream
As I never got the chance
As it doesn’t work this way
I will give my all
If only to be with her
But she will not
She doesn’t care for dreams
And why ever should she
I'm just a pathetic guy
Dreaming for a forbidden soul
As we are not the same
We have not the same
We live not the same
We hope not the same

But I love you
Love you beyond my own belief

Will I be a fool
If I leave you so
And I will leave my life
My hope
My dream
My all

Will I be alive again
Will I smile again
Without your smile

Can I bear the thought
The thought of you a little sad
Your tears
I would rather burn
In the most burning hell
I would rather burn
But to see you cry

For all my life I will give to you
I will not watch you
If you desired to
And I might cry
So what if I might die
I might loose belief

But I will give my life
My all
My tired eyes
Even the love
That I dream upon
That I live upon

The life of watching you

I will
I will give my all

Even if you don’t remember me
I beg you so
Forget this man
He has lost everything for all
For you
His life
You know it's you

He might as well as break
From the weight of life
As its too damn beautiful
For him to live
For him to love

But his heart
It wont bleed again
As the blood has been drained
From his eyes
His staring eyes


I will forever love you my doll
My idol
Even if they leave no soul
Of nothing but the eco of my screams
The whispers I cried for you
I will forever love you
My all

My all
My all
My all

My love
And all

I Don’t Love You

I cried
I cried so many times
You never heard

I cried
that I'll give my life for you
Go tell your boyfriend to do that
I'll see where he runs away to

I've watched you kiss him;
So many times
Could you imagine how I feel
Of the wounds inside these spines

You never cared
If you did, I never heard
Maybe I would have been the one
If only I wasn’t so obscured

You seem so happy
Do you feel in love?
How long will you two go
How long will I be a watching dove

How long should I have to dream
While he has his hands on you
But you're so far away
To hear my love for you

I can't go on
We can never be
So while I watch the waves
Of the broken sea

I will cry

I don’t love you
I don’t want to
I don’t need to
I can't seem to
I can't bear to

I'll look away
To let go of you
To try to
I will stop my stares
I'll lie to my broken heart
That you never did exist

And never will

Not even in dreams
I will let you go
Try to stop my love to flow
That I will deny my heart so much so
Cause I don’t,
I don’t,

I don’t love you

Dawn

Dawn
What do you seek from my soul
Let me wonder in my dreams
Let me shatter behind my wall

I do not wish the light
I wish to only stare her eyes
As it’s the only sun I see
Her smile, which makes my sky

Dawn
You are the wake from my all
I do not live without my sky
I do not see without my fall

Dreams
The stupidity of my mind
The lurking beneath my skin
Waiting for real life to bind

Dawn
It’s the horizon I stare for her
As her beauty has filled me with stare
If only life was simple or fair

Dawn
To them, you're the hope they see
To me, you're the end to all I need
The hope will go, only misery will be

Dawn
I stare so much at you
Trying to find her smile in you
The obsession my life has drew

Dawn
I wanna sleep for all my time
Dreams are the only things I seek
I never wished for my world to rhyme

Oh dawn, oh dawn, oh dawn
Leave me and go
I don’t want the day to be
I want her dreams row to row

Every Little Thing

I'll wipe away my tears
Ashamed to be seen
I wont show my love
I'll hurt as I've been

Crying I fall asleep
To ease the pain with deems
My mind might as well go high
But my heart will stay as screams

Broken I'll wake at night
To think of fears and tears and whys
I drop lying to watch the alarm
So I'll hit it lightly with tired eyes

I get up to stare at mirrors
I see her face behind the past
Her smile burns the mind
While the stare will never last

While I cant bear the time
The hope holds me to stand
While how I will get to her
That’s what hope will never understand

And then I pretend
Hide behind the usual I
As I laugh and joke to friends I see
I hurt and perish till the day will pass by

With the scent of her I reach my door
As I go inside I'm reminded of her some more
And I'll leave the usual smile I wore
And I drop depressed on some floor

And I lie there for some time
Until its midnight, I drag myself to the life I'm in
I don’t even desire to eat
I live on my thought of her as I've been

And the days go by
But her face never does
I see her in every little thing
and I fall in love more than I ever was

Cry

Cry my eyes
Let the feelings go
Destiny, hope, her smile
Let my tears flow

Cry my eyes
It was what I didn’t do
The horizon, the sea, her eyes
If it was all I ever knew

Cry my eyes
Deny the hate my head can see
Give the reins to this broken heart
Turn from reason and try to be

Cry my eyes
It's what we can only do
A coward in the cruel world free
We'll see where hope takes you through

Cry my eyes
Don’t watch her face so long
She doesn’t care for dreams
Act as we don’t believe this wrong

Cry my eyes
These veins can take no more
Relieve the thoughts off my mind
It’s the only cover it has wore

Cry my eyes
Open to bare wind and die
This soul tires from the love inside
Open my chest, let it fly

Lie my heart
Tell me that I can live this long
My soul's now so so gone
Cover the truth from my song

Sleep my mind
As I lie here waiting to die
Turn from this world of lusts
Turn away and say goodbye

Believe These Words Of Me

I'm serious;

Stare into my eyes
I'll hold your hands
I'll hold myself from going high
As I stare at you;

I will;

I will give this life for you
I will throw heaven away
Only for the chance to be with you
Nothing matters when I feel you
My heart shatters from the sense of you
My mind blinds from the scent of you
My hands tremble from the look of you
My eyes weep at the part of you
I only live to love you
and only you

I dream too much
Now my memories even feel like dreams
But you're no dream
Different from every other thing I seek
You could walk here any time and day
You could lie beside me every 9th of may
I could touch your lips in every forbidden pray
You could hold me tight in every pretended fray
And I will stand my feet
From bearing this unbearing heat

But I will always cry
Cry inside, hurt, and live this by
As your millions of miles away
My memories to you are as light as hay
Your memories of me are a long forgotten play
So what may I say

I live on a dream that cannot be
I'm chained to a love that will never run down on me
I will be trapped in love, dreaming for love to set me free
To only stare at her I plea
To only watch her eyes I see
To see her perishing smile I bear on knee

And to calm my wounds I write
So you may find this heart of me
And burn out its light
Maybe set this life to rest, erase the color
And free my soul, to run wild and free

So I am serious
I will forever perish my life for you
As it only aims to live to worship you